But seriously, I don’t know how I’m managing. 2017 started off great. I was up to date on all of my school assignments. I had scheduled posts prepped. I was working out regularly. My lesson plans were always done and ready to be submitted. I had a comfortable grasp on life. Then WHOOSH, a big ass tide took over, and I found myself just trying to stay a float. I’ve just been trying to keep my head above water and maintain air in the mist of the high tide that attempted to consume me. Yet, I found, when I stayed focused on my purpose, my why, and most importantly on God, the tide became neutralized.
Tide– noun|the alternate rising and falling of the sea, usually twice in each lunar day at a particular place, due to the attraction of the moon and sun.
First of all, life is very unpredictable. We all know. One cannot simply plan events and occurrences and truly expect everything to go according to plan. Facts. Facts. Facts. On the contrary, this dream building season, most of us are in, requires much focus, less sleep, more time, less distraction, and a lot of work. If you’re like me, you probably have a day job, and work diligently to nurture your dreams at night. For most artists this concept is normal. Nonetheless, wearing so many hats and having so many responsibilities can become overwhelming. The past few week has been just that for myself…overwhelming as fuck.
Normally, I like to stay ahead on things. I like to be like J.Cole: “Even when I rhyme about the future, I be reminising.”And for the most part that is true because my forward thinking skills are incomparable, but I digress. Conversely, these past few weeks have been a lot, and I’m not even sure I know what tipped the scale. I had to get to a point where I just took things step by step and day by day, but even that course of action seemed like a lot. I kept thinking: “damn, I’m just trying to keep my head above water.” At this point, I just wanted to stay afloat and not drown in my dreams. Then, the story of Peter popped in my head.
Break it down, B:
So this guy, Peter, one of Jesus’s gang members attempted to walk on water when he saw Jesus standing in the lake, right. Right. So Peter’s like dang, if it’s really Jesus out there skating on the water I should be able to go with him, and Jesus said, “Well come on den.” Then, the wind started blowing hard, and I we can infer, hide tides began to rise. Naturally, Peter becomes afraid, and calls on God to save him. So, Jesus reached out his hand , and got his ass. But, the whole time Peter is focusing on God, and the next thing he knows, he is walking on water. (Matthew 14: 22-33) When this story popped in my mind, I thought well there it is. I need to say focused on God. Within this focus, my purpose and my motivation for doing the work I do presides.
With all that said, yes, life can get overwhelming. The tide does get high. We get behind. We lose focus. We become distracted. Our fleshy needs sometimes attempt to take over. The spirit of procrastination attempts to sneak in to chew up our dreams and spit out the bones like it never lived. Our emotions can get outstanding. And, well, shit happens. Nonetheless, if we keep our focus on God and our eyes on the prize, 1. God, the spirit that lives within us, will provide us with the strength and support necessary to continue our walk on water, and 2. we will soon forget we were ever afraid or nearly under water. So, keep your head up and your eyes particularly to the sky, and you’ll find yourself floating easily along.
It’s like a jungle sometimes, it makes me wonder how I keep from going under.
-Grandmaster Flash & the Furious Five
Say: Just breathe.
Salute: Ain’t we lucky we got em..
Be light. Work your talents. Together we can spark a light Pandemic.
Britney “Bird Nefertiti” Newton